Aion players-

( holy crap )

Since I have finally made my way over to facebook I haven't really been active at all on LJ, but it still does serve a purpose for me. This is a place that I can just open up, write what I feel without worry to how it worded, and just release which has been such a big tool for my development over the years. So let me get to it...

I have found the ultimate purpose of the human being is to be the bridge that brings Divinity consciously into the physical. We are all born in flesh, in the physical, but who we are existed before our physical birth, it will last after our physical death, and it is the process of intergrating who we truly are and who we are now in the flesh that we are here to do. Many people are out of balance as they believe in the physical but not in the divinity they can't see with their eyes and then you have those who are so into their spiritual nature that they look at all physical things, including their bodies, as nothing but illusions. It is the balance of the two but also understanding which created the other so you can understand the flow of creation itself. Bringing divinity fully into the physical makes possible the miracles we all have heard of and it is what spurs the imaginations projection of super heroes.

The flow goes Spiritual --> Physical. In more detail it goes Spirit --> Mind --> Physical. You can break this down into more detail with the inclusion of emotions and the soul. Many consider the soul and spirit as the same but yet they are two different words that refer to two different aspects of oursevles. This not something I am going to go into now but I will say this. You can sell your soul, but you can't sell your spirit even if you think you did...which is also why redemption always exists for everyone...even if you have sold your soul.

The last few years I have followed my own journey to opening up my mind to the divinity of spirit and it has forever changed me. I have alleviated fears and their control over my life. I have discovered habits of programmed behavior and eliminated them. My intuition has been embraced and has grown expotentially along with many other "gifts" that are the norm for those who allow it to be.

Now I have reached a new point in this journey. Things are now taking a focus on the physical for me. The Divinity of Spirit has filled my mind and now it needs to continue flowing into the physical. It isn't that it hasn't been flowing into the physical because my physical body and expression have evolved over these years as well, but the primary focus was more on the mind before. Now the primary focus is moving to the physical. It is time for me to master my entire physical expression.

I realize I have lots of bundled up energy as often it is hard to sit still unless I will it to be. Whenever I am doing things that are aligned with my dharma my energy grows to a level where I have to back it back down, but I don't want to do this any more. I know I can learn to regulate my heart rate, body temperture, and central nervous system better. In fact I know I can practically reprogram my entire physical being, every cell, to do things that people call impossible or crazy. Not the process but the physical manifestation of ascension is nothing more then the pure energy of divinity being recognized within oneself and experienced. At this state there is no more attachment to the form we take. We can choose to "look" human or any other appearance including just being in the form of pure energy.

This isn't just about my personal achievement of ascension, but also much more. As I master bringing the divinity into my physical being it will do more then just affect me, but it will also effect those around me as my energy radiates from my own being with less blockages. It empowers my express whether it be of art or of speech. When I get it going you also have the effect on others of hands on healing. Most of all I become a solid real experience for everyone else to see which grounds the impossible into reality. This makes it easier and easier for people and future generations to achieve the same thing.

Over the past few years that I have been opening up my mind and marinating on the divine energy within my mind I have lived a life in a cave. I have isolated myself and lived a life of barely surviving, barely getting by. Now as I am changing seasons into bringing this divinity into my physical being I am finding myself getting out more, socializing more, watching people be attracted to me more, I am being consumed with desires to work on my life's work and dharma, and I am manifesting a career change that will elevate my econonmic status which will fuel my dharma.

I have been slowly building a solid foundation in my life and that is continuing. As much as I would love to just explode onto the scene so to speak I recognize the slow disciplined methodical approach that I am traveling on and its purpose. I have many mistakes and each one has been an invaluable lesson that has fueled my evolution. I am getting closer to living the days I have seen in visions but I have learned not get anxious. Be here now.

The time is now. I am here.

The time is now. We are here.

The Evolution Revolution

Let's roll!

So I bought myself an elliptical yesterday and managed to get my ass on it for 27 minutes this morning. I also discovered that what music works for the treadmill does not necessarily work for the elliptical.

Anyone know any good workout music that will help me rock that elliptical without feeling every single second?

I'm a little embarrased to say, but I listed to Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus 3 times this morning because it had just the right beat.

KakaSaku drabble #43

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5041596/43/

It's a mental thing.

Title: Mizuage
Words: 8,828
Genre(s): Angst/Romance
Rating: Rated: M
Summary: He didn't want to take responsibility for her. Sakura was nothing to
him, and Kakashi was certain that he was nothing to her. With the way he'd
treated her, how could it be otherwise? kakasaku Rated M for a reason. Please
use discretion.

URL: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4983648/7/

My birthday was crazy. Tattoos, Toronto, lots of rye and my friend got hit on by the HOTTEST guy in the bar. We all noticed him when we went in and he was sooooo cute. Good hair, accent, great teeth, sharp clothes. Raaawr.

That was Friday night. Today I am starting to feel normal again. Got some sleep last night, drinking water and am hydrated again. lol.

Quick question for my friends that are in the KNOW when it comes to computers. My laptop fan seems to be working extra hard these days. The bottom of my laptop gets pretty hot and I'm worried it's going to burn out. I've run all my scans and there are no viruses or spyware, so I'm stumped.

Does it just need a clean? Any ideas? It's only been like this for about 2 weeks, but I can't lose my laptop. It has so much on it.

Hello, everyone. I've lurked around for long enough and now have a story of my own to share. But the time-travel theme seems.... overdone? I dunno, I'll give it a shot.

Title: Rewrite
Rating: M
Summary: Sakura is careless and is sent to the past right before her teammates eyes. But it's not that bad when you're only sent a couple years back. The problem is the incident might not have been an accident...
Prologue

Submission time is closed! Voting now begins.

Reply to this entry with your 1st, 2nd and 3rd choices. The entry is screened and ends November 27th. The winners will be posted on the 28th.

Here are your entries:

Overcast by eldrfire

Beaches by darkxkunoichi

Playing Dirty by oceansex

The Dark Union of Insensate Dust by tiredbuthyper

Citizens of What we Were by a_lifestyle


Good luck to all!

Title: Citizens of What we Were (Word Challenge#3: Beach)
Author: a_lifestyle
Rating: PG (Angsty.)
Words: 994
Summary: Every moment with her now was as painful as it was precious.

For the third Word Challenge. Thanks again to omizu for organizing! I've been having some problems with LJ, and didn't get this posted until now. Hope I'm on time! XD

Well, another birthday down. It was a good day. Flowers, chocolates, cake(s), and lots of nice well wishes. Got my hair done, bought some shoes, had a decent day at work and now have money for a new tattoo.

Unfortunately, I am waaaay behind on Nanowrimo so it'll take some heavy duty catching up. I haven't given up. I'm at 28000 so it's not even close to over. But I'm not in love with my story. I think this is why I'm not flying along with it. Good luck to everyone still doing it. I'll be up all night Saturday (barring any horrendous hangovers) and working until my fingers hurt just to catch up. By then I'll probably need to do 10000 words. Might have to pull a sicky from work.

I miss fanfiction to be honest.

I needed something to improve my mood, so I posted a fic today. haha, it's a probably going to be a two-parter, but it'll take me some time to get the next part out.

Anyways, here it is:

Title: Hell Hath No Fury
Rating: K+ (for now)
Summary: When Sakura's rage explodes into violence, there is only one man turn to, but he's never much help to begin with.

www.fanfiction.net/s/5519693/1/Hell_hath_no_fury

I bring you vaguely Christmas oriented KakaSaku Smut! If you were looking for plot ... um, I'm so sorry. This is the bit of porn I was forced to write out so that I could FINALLY go back to writing my Nano novel. Stupid kinky bunnies!

Title: Home For The Holidays
Rated: NC-17
Summary: Kakashi comes back from a mission on Christmas Eve. The first person he goes to see after his return is the one woman he couldn't keep his dirty mind off.

KakaSaku drabble #42

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5041596/42/

The third time isn't always the charm.

Title: A Marriage Inconvenienced
Rating: T for innuendo
Chapter 13: Subterfuge
Word Count: 5,000ish
Summary: The math was simple: Him plus Her equaled genius. It's really a pity he forgot to mention it.

In this chapter: Faces are misplaced


On Live Journal or Fanfiction.net

My entry for word challenge #3! Uh, don't tell, but this is me procastinating from my NaNo. >.>


Title: The Dark Union of Insensate Dust

Author: Amrun (me)

Genre: Hurt/Comfort / Friendship

Rating: T

Warnings: Character death

Word Count: 999 without epigraph, 1,146 with epigraph. (Yeah, I had to go get all high-falutin' on NARUTO FANFICTION again. So sue me.)

Summary: The absent are the dead --- for they are cold,
And ne'er can be what once we did behold;
And they are changed, and cheerless, --- or if yet
The unforgotten do not all forget. - Lord Byron


LINK AT FF.NET HERE

Or, if you'd prefer:
LINK TO MY LJ POST HERE


Note to mods: Oceansex made me realise I also do not have an author tag! D=

Title: Playing Dirty
Rating: G
Genre: Romance/Humor
Pairings or Characters: Kakashi/Sakura, Naruto, Sai
Warnings: none
Word Count: 804
Summary: She'd given him three hours. He wouldn't last one.

(also, mods, I don't have an author tag, and I can't add one myself. if you could add one, I'd be very grateful, as I plan on posting here for a long time. XD)

Title: Beaches
Words: 1,000 [I feel awesome. Haha]
Genre(s): Friendship/Romance
Rating: T[?]
Summary: InoSaku friendship from Kakashi's POV

( Beaches )

If you don't understand the ending then this will help.

Also, I think my NaNo fic may eventually evolve into a KakaSaku. (Yay?) It's weird as mess, anyway. I should have known it would be when I decided to base it off of T.S. Eliot's The Waste Land.


Title: Playing the Game (Chapter 8)

Author: Amrun (yours truly)

Summary: They always played this game, helpless against the heavy torrents of despair that threatened to overtake their lives at every juncture.

Rating: M

Warnings: spoilers up to 452, squicky sex, borderline noncon, adult situations, explicit violence, death

Genres: General / Hurt/Comfort

Words so far: 39,394


CHAPTER 1 LINK HERE

CHAPTER 8 LINK HERE

( VIDYA GAEM )

ALSO!! Before I was just throwing around the idea of going back to school just cos I was kinna bored and unsatisfyed with my art and the fact that I was becoming "complacent", but I think I really am going to go back to school now. cambryn and her friend Matt took me to Gemini School of Art and man, it is perfect. We did a little portfolio review with the owners and just talked with them for a couple hours and it was really inspiring, I feel like if I did do the course there, all the missing pieces would be filled in, and I could get a job anywhere. Anyway, dunno how I could pay for it but I'm just excited, I hope I can figure out a way to get in.